Today was sort of my day. What else can I say? Finally broke the 381 barrier. FINALLY! I'm learning to let go :D I have to thank God for this shoot. Not only this one, but every single training and fortnight and competition. I always pray before I shoot and I place my absolute faith and trust, knowing that he'll help me along. Today I wasn't really expecting much but I had this strong faith and determination to break my 380 barrier. I did. I'm grateful. Mr Ng was pleasantly surprised by my performance. He jokingly asked me "Wan Yin, why did you get so high? You're supposed to get 375 today." The reason behind this question is because my progress has been kind of slow. For every fortnight, I've been getting my new personal best and at the same time breaking our club's record for Air Rifle Women. That's because I've initially broken the club record with the score of 372 and subsequently, kept improving by only 1 point?! So my previous fortnight shoot which was 2 Friday's ago left me with a score of 374. If I were to follow the phenomenon of improving by only 1 point for each fortnight, logically, I should be getting 375 today. However, I was pleased to hear that i managed a 381, of course with God's help :D The shooting process was, however, gruelling. That word shouldn't come out from the mouth of a shooter who truly enjoys the process of shooting. Nevertheless, however much I would like not to use that word, or any other negative connotations for that matter, it was exactly how I felt. I had to psycho myself, as usual, for every shot. Kept having to meditate on Mr Ng's words "treat every shot like your first shot...only shoot when you're stable". The ordeal was so mentally draining to the extent that I squandered all my energy and focus for the 1 over hour activity. Throughout the shoot my eyes were constantly blur due to extreme focus and I used more time to shoot then usual. I was first to shoot and last to end. Even Sheryl-lynn who took quite a long break during the shoot ended before me! For my last 2 shots, I looked around, only to find that all the other bays were empty, with only myself, my rifle, my target card. The feeling was overwhelmingly stressful and I almost thought that I had run out of time, only to realise that I still had 15 mins left for my 2 shots. Phew! Anyway, felt slightly embarrassed after I shot as I knew I had gotten my new PB, which also meant a new club record, just that I didn't know the score. Everyone turned to face me after I had shot and I had to carefully avoid eye contact with all of them as I was truly embarrassed. Anyway, was truly euphoric today and congrats to Huiqing who also achieved her new PB and broke her club record, Amelia who shot well, as well as Dickson who achieved his new PB of 500 plus, no more getting 49 plus and cheekily claiming that it's still a PB haha. For my dear Rifle team mates Shu Qi and Sheryl-Lynn, it's ok if you both didn't perform up to expectations because it's not the end. It's just the begining of our team effort for TEAM GOLD! Yes, not nil, not Bronze, not Silver, but GOLD! I believe we can achieve this. Seriously, I know that both of you have the potential to go far. I know this sounds really cliche and I'm sorry for having to keep repeating these words to you both because I'm only trying my best to motivate you both. Shu Qi, you are really great. Mr Ng constantly mentions the nice grouping you got the other time and I'll always remember the first place you got for SR Olympic's Shooting event! haha. Sheryl-Lynn, you are really a natural when it comes to stability. Really stable. That's a great advantage for shooting and you can really go far with that! To my other shooters, both rifle and pistol, I truly believe that everyone of us is great and has a great depth of potential. We have already made it this far, from shooting trials, beating over a 100 other people to enter SR's Shooting Club and we've proved ourselves during our NTU shoot as well as our constant fortnight shoots. This is evidence of our prowess and if we put in enough effort and help one another through our mental obstacles, I believe, SR's Shooting Club will definitely carve a name and it will be engraved, not only in our school's history but also in the Shooting arena. Together, we shall Shoot for Legacy! Team and Individual GOLDS.. Huat arh!