It has been ages since I've last blogged and many of you are complaining. haha. Ok, now I'm answering to the complaints received so yeah, here I am blogging an entry ok? Has been real hectic recently and I'm almost buckling under the immense pressure. Really feel like banging my head against the wall as it really is multi-purposed - 1. relieves headaches by creating a major one? ok, how does that relieve my pain then? haha... 2. die from concussion or perhaps over loss of blood? Anyway, it's always tempting to take the shortcuts but well, everything has it's pros and cons so I don't think it's advisable to just end everything by banging my head against the wall! ok, crapping session over.I'm really feeling demoralised and depressed lately. There are so many things beyond my reach no matter how much I yearn for them and that feeling of emptiness just kills. It's like the feeling of falling into an abyss, bottomless and dark. I really feel like giving up all my dreams of achieving the different goals I have for different aspects of my current state of life. However, it just feels such a waste to abandon all goals in order to suppress my misery. Everything comes with a price and to achieve my goals and dreams, there's surely a price to pay. Being able to attain those dreams mean that I've sacrificed and have put in a great deal of effort to exchange for the glory I have. Being carefree is definitely an enjoyment but giving up goals to be carefree would mean forsaking the glorious feeling of attaining them and the feeling at that moment when you see others achieving your goal will definitely be horrible. That is the reason why I'm feeling so awful now, hanging on loose thread, unsure of what my plight may be and whether I'll succeed or not. This feeling is certainly more horrible than giving up or pursuing goals with high certainty of success. With this, I leave you all the decision of whether to give up or go all out for your goals. Success is difficult to achieve, but once you've attained it, you'll feel that it was worth it all.