A bout of melancholy came gushing over me today. Although today is Valentines and it should be a happy day, however, I certainly do not feel even a tinge of euphoria. Perhaps it could be due to the sudden turnout of events. Suddenly I'm feeling aimless and empty. So many things are happening, so many people are leaving. Staring at the shooters in the range today, I began to ask myself questions which had never come across my mind before. "Do I really want shooting?" Thinking of this question reminded me of what Aaron had asked me. He asked if I liked SR's shooting range and without hesitation I replied "Yes!". Then he said that I should stay in SR for my CCA. At that moment, I was practically, in fact literally dumbfounded (we were chatting through MSN...get what I mean?). So that same question flooded my mind time and time again. If I really loved shooting, did I have to ponder for so long? Or is my joining of shooting merely an instant passion; an ignited firework which bursts out beautifully for a split moment but dissipates shortly afterward? Placing AJ as first choice instead of SR means that I have to risk not getting into Shooting as my CCA as I certainly have to go for shooting trials again in order to secure a place in Shooting. Being able to enter SR's Shooting Club certainly wasn't an easy feat and having to go for shooting trials again means that I have yet another set of emotional trauma to battle. With countless affirmaties at hand, I began to question myself again. "What exactly am I looking for in my life? What exactly do I want in life?" People must think I'm crazy to pose myself unanswerable and challenging questions. All of a sudden, life seems so surreal and thinking of my objectives in life probed me to question further; the ultimate question any human would ask, "Why am I here?" or "What am I here for?". I suppose most of you would rather spend your time relaxing or doing other things instead of bombarding yourself with such questions! Maybe we should all just take life as it comes and enjoy every moment spent while living. Such questions, although thought provoking, really does not contribute to what you experience in life and I guess that we should all just live life as it is and most importantly, always take an optimistic view to everything that happens! With this, I wish everyone a Happy Valentines, although you may not have a valentine! haha. It's ok, although I only have Ming Jia as my valentine today, for those of you who are dying for a valentines day gift (it has to be belated because I'm not meeting anyone else today!), do inform me and I'll give you a present a.s.a.p. haha