I'm like going to explode soon. The pressure in this pressure cooker is almost reaching the maximum. I want to scream... Aarrggghhh!!!! Ok, maybe I'm feeling much better now. Guess I'm back to depression mode again. Have lost interest in everything and I feel really empty inside. It seems I'm lacking something which I do not know what and that feels terrible. I cannot believe I had attained such horrendous results...actually, I had expected that but not to that extent. I was hoping the figures could spare me some mercy but apparently, they're as cold-blooded and unfeeling as me. However, as like poles repel, I certainly have a natural disgust towards those pathetic and unsympathetic figures that could not even lessen the heavy burden on myself. I really feel extremely guilty right now and super lousy. This is by far the worst feeling I've ever experienced and I really wish I do not have to go through this again. Felt like breaking down when ms. s's bloodshot eyes caught my attention. As she stared disappointedly at me and said the same familiar phrase, "So how? What are you going to do about your results? It's not good you know..." The rest is painful. At that point, I really felt intoxicated, hard to breath... The worst part is that she now thinks that I'm sort of stupid because I actually studied but achieved horrendous results! I think I've set a record for Cedar's triple science students. I doubt anyone has ever or will ever break my record! Forget it. I'm just hopeless and useless.